I hope that this post isn’t too boring or similar to other ones in this subreddit. I’ve read some r/sex before but not too much. Anyways, I really want to vent because this is such a weird and private issue that I’d rather not involve parents or friends or anything like that. Also, I have to use a throwaway because privacy is important when it comes to this issue.
ANYWAYS, to make a long story short, I started college during summer and have been seeing a guy for a couple months. I don’t want to go on with the cliche about how great of a guy he is and blah, but he really seemed like it. I only started sleeping with him about a month ago, and everything was great.
We’ve done it a lot considering how long we’ve been seeing each other and I was already getting a feel of what he’s like in bed, and so far it had been amazing. Nothing crazy, just really good oral, regular, and occasional anal. The only rule I really had in place was condom for any kind of penetration, vaginal or anal. He didn’t make it seem like he had a problem with that, besides, he still got his bare head. He did mention once that he’d like to take the condom off for anal because there wasn’t a pregnancy risk, but I wasn’t comfortable with it and he dropped it.
SO, Monday night I go over to his place because he has his own, and we have a couple shots then smoke weed (something we haven’t done before sex before). It actually set the mood really well and I was super into it. He was into it too, and looking back, was definitely more selfish than usual, especially with oral. Okay- so fast forward and now we’re doing anal, and things are getting intense. I knew it must be the pre-sex fun we had, and he was really giving it to me, nothing too much at this point, and I wasn’t in pain.
I asked him if he was ready to cum and he said yeah. I asked him where, like I usually do, expecting him to want to pull out and take the condom off so he can finish with my mouth, but instead he wants to cum in the condom, while doing anal. He’d only done that a couple times before, during normal sex, but I didn’t mind. Anyways, we change into this position that he wants to finish in, and he really starts giving it to me, and pulling out and thrusting back in, over and over- not sure where that came from, and it made me feel uncomfortable, I asked him to ease up a bit and try to keep it in, but he pretty much ignored me. I was getting a little impatient- but I wasn’t showing it at all, I wanted him to cum so I was still really into it, half-enjoying it and half-waiting for it to end. He finally cums, longer and more passionate than usual, and stays in places for a long time. He tells me he came in my ass. I thought he was kidding at first, and I look back at him and pull out, I see his bare dick come out, and (without getting too detailed- I know this is gross, at least to me, so I’m sorry) a bunch of you know what come out and go right over you know where.
I sort of flipped out at this point, and got pretty angry. He claimed that right when he was about to cum the condom ripped, and in the moment just took the rest of it off. There was no broken condom. I asked him how long the condom had been off and he said only for a little. I told him to go fuck himself and walked back to my dorm, which was the WORST WALK EVER, by the way.
I probably should handled the situation better, right? I guess it’s my fault for trusting a guy so much, having only known him for a little. A part of me never wants to talk to him again, but I also have to know if he has any real feelings for me. He was so nice for so long, and then he just completely used me. Maybe it really was just the heat of the moment, and I shouldn’t be as upset as I am? Then again, he’s older than me, and I have a sickening feeling that he’s played me and probably does this type of thing frequently.
Do I need to get tested? He told me he was clean, but I wonder if he’s been with more girls than I thought. Is there anything I could have contracted from what happened that I couldn’t have already got through oral? If not, I think I’m okay. Also, is it worth it to take a day after pill? I’m not on birth-control, but its been two days now, and I’m not sure how much got in, but is this even possible? I’ve had to take a day after pill once before and it messed my body up, so I hope not.
Anyways, to anyone who reads it and doesn’t judge – thank you! I didn’t want this to happen. Thanks for letting me vent, it felt good to type it out. Also – I’m bad at titles, I had no idea what to write :/
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