I posted this awhile ago, but it didn’t reach as many folks as I had hoped… and I believe it’s worth sharing again.
Alright, let me tell you my story. I am a lovely young thing entering my most fertile years. For basically as long as I had been aware of it, I had been highly skeptical of oral sex – specifically, suckin’ cock as delivered to a male. My conception of the deed was assembled from all the depictions of it that I had seen, the kneeling, the ways people talk about it in the media and in real life, all the vulgar insults that sprout from it, etc… In summation I considered giving oral sex to a man to be a demeaning, even degrading act that was shameful and all-around yucky. Would an intelligent, self-respecting young woman of the modern age actually bend to such measures?! Even more influential to my opinion was the experience of my best friend, whose first attempt at oral was, to put it lightly, unpleasant. Luckily, she and her boyfriend are very close and understanding and now it’s just something to laugh at… but that’s another story.
But then I met a wonderful young man of my own, who is very eager to share my sexuality and give me pleasure. The very first time we got up to anything together he went down on me so enthusiastically and lovingly, I was just in awe… and I was a little bit sad because I was afraid I would not be able to return the favor. Even for this boy, whom I love more intensely than anyone for whom I have ever felt anything before, it was hard to imagine myself giving a blow job. Hmm… that word is still repellent, but I’m sure you guys can see where this is going. Now, there was no pressure from my boyfriend (the word he says I use the most to describe us is ‘egalitarian’), but I myself wanted to do for him as he had done for me… delightfully. And I am not one to turn down something I have not actually experienced myself. My wonderful boyfriend said he didn’t want me to do anything I wasn’t comfortable with, yet he did tell me he wanted it, when I was ready. He even said based on our delicious kissing adventures that I would probably be pretty good at it if I tried, and inside I knew it too. So I reflected with great profundity, and looked about for some advice. Heh, thanks a lot, reddit!
So just last evening we were cuddling and my boyfriend gently suggested I give it a go, and I figured, ‘carpe diem!’ and took him in. I made sure to cover my teeth, and tried really hard not to picture myself from outside, meaning that I kept all my focus on him and every tremor of his body. I just kept up a steady rhythm and occasionally embellished with my tongue, all the while he was holding my hand and letting out helpless little sighs, and when he came I tightened my grip on his shaft and under my fingers, inside my mouth, under his skin I could feel the cum surge up… His taste was not as strong as I had expected and I even managed to swallow most of it, not that it made any difference to him at that moment. I finished up with some gentle kisses and then we just gazed into each others’ eyes. He held me and asked me how it was, and I told him honestly that I loved feeling such a level of control over him. He looked at me and said softly, “Complete control…”
And that is the point that I want to share with anyone who cares to hear. A few months ago I could barely imagine myself going down on a guy – it was just a personal revulsion. But now I have done just what I had previously feared, and the one word I would use to describe the way I feel is not ‘degraded’ or ‘shamed’: it is ‘empowered’. I never thought that sucking a penis could be so enjoyable for both parties involved. Just as my boyfriend confided in me, and I could feel for myself, holding him inside my mouth gave me total control over his entire being for a few beautiful minutes… and he was so grateful and I was so content, the whole experience was immensely positive. I felt proud of myself and, again, I felt powerful to have been able to evoke such an intense response from him. It brought us closer than ever.
So I suppose, if you are trepidatious about giving head to the man you love, have a little faith in yourself and show him and you what you can do. I am personally so glad that I did something I was afraid of. Now I feel even more confident in myself and generous towards my boyfriend, and the love we share has grown another bond.
Update: We went at it again today, everything was sunny and warm, and he told me he experienced one of the most intense orgasms he has ever had… It’s all good.
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